我们都是没有安全感的人，患得患失，
但是这种感觉又无法消除，
纵使自己知道有些无理取闹，
但就是想要证明自己的重要性。
明明是依赖，却要表现出无足轻重的样子；
明明是在意，却要表现出毫不在乎的样子。
这样的我们，该如何是好。
【微博】
明明自己就没有很潇洒为何装出那种不在乎。
明明知道朋友根本没有在用心为何还要做出那样的强求。
一个人的圈子，可以很大很大。
在这个社交的圈子呆不下去了，就只好拿工作麻醉自己。
告诉自己不屑别人的怜爱。
绝不需要别人可怜的施舍！
这就是一个像猫性格的女人。
在夜里，舔着寂寞为自己疗伤。
只需要找到对的人来护着，而不是别人奢侈的怜爱。
【有感而发】
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
finally【心动】
很没有部落格了~~
一度很想把自己难过的日子给写下来，写下自己如何熬过来，例证自己成长的一部分。可是，想着想着，一旦下写来了，可能没办法回头了。因为，每当看着这些字迹就无法对他人释怀。曾经，听说过 “要把快乐开心的事记下让这段美好感动的回忆永远留着；把伤心难过的是记在沙里，是记下了，可是却希望它很快过去”。所以，过去的就让它过去吧，日子还长着呢。
最近的我在干嘛呢~~哈哈，过了本姑娘大学生涯里最后的小考以后，这两天先闲着，充充电。就连今天也躲在家里当缩头乌龟。因为，今天本是报了名去 career fair却因为明天的面试而不想旧患复发，就现在家里过过日子。（暗爽两下）^0^v
很久很久了，从没有为一个人心动了。单身了这么久，也为爱情执着一段日子。从那以后，很少为谁留着位置。直到最近，有那么一个人，我会为他留神一下。不算什么倾慕爱慕的，就只是觉得；诶，有不错！（称这位仁兄为‘F’）刚刚看上F，除了五官端正以外，学习也还不错。重点是，有着摄影的热诚还有手上的手表很不错。对，手表！我很在意男生手上的表！觉得电子表太幼稚了，链表就还好看上怎样的设计，个人是比较就偏爱于那种皮带式的表。看起来，就有一种认真却不失个性的感觉。F的手表是那种皮带式的！所以，看表也是其中一种看人的方式。还有，原来他还蛮喜欢 fustal 的。哈哈~说到好像文武双全，没有什么缺点似的。说真的，也许是因为不认识，才没有发现吧~
一度很想把自己难过的日子给写下来，写下自己如何熬过来，例证自己成长的一部分。可是，想着想着，一旦下写来了，可能没办法回头了。因为，每当看着这些字迹就无法对他人释怀。曾经，听说过 “要把快乐开心的事记下让这段美好感动的回忆永远留着；把伤心难过的是记在沙里，是记下了，可是却希望它很快过去”。所以，过去的就让它过去吧，日子还长着呢。
最近的我在干嘛呢~~哈哈，过了本姑娘大学生涯里最后的小考以后，这两天先闲着，充充电。就连今天也躲在家里当缩头乌龟。因为，今天本是报了名去 career fair却因为明天的面试而不想旧患复发，就现在家里过过日子。（暗爽两下）^0^v
很久很久了，从没有为一个人心动了。单身了这么久，也为爱情执着一段日子。从那以后，很少为谁留着位置。直到最近，有那么一个人，我会为他留神一下。不算什么倾慕爱慕的，就只是觉得；诶，有不错！（称这位仁兄为‘F’）刚刚看上F，除了五官端正以外，学习也还不错。重点是，有着摄影的热诚还有手上的手表很不错。对，手表！我很在意男生手上的表！觉得电子表太幼稚了，链表就还好看上怎样的设计，个人是比较就偏爱于那种皮带式的表。看起来，就有一种认真却不失个性的感觉。F的手表是那种皮带式的！所以，看表也是其中一种看人的方式。还有，原来他还蛮喜欢 fustal 的。哈哈~说到好像文武双全，没有什么缺点似的。说真的，也许是因为不认识，才没有发现吧~
Thursday, March 3, 2011
狠女人
过了今天，我会不惜一切拿回我应得的。
我不再介意你们如何看我， 因为我厌倦了做好人的愚蠢。
起初，我真的愿意放下高傲，掏出助人的心。
当我得不到你们谅解，和你们怨恨的眼神时，
那一刹那，我懂了。
原来，我不是好人。
我不是那种无怨无悔，好人做到底的好人。
当，你们嫌弃我，大家不分红唇皂白的怨我恨我讨厌我时，我受够了！
现实的社会，我来了。
从前的那个女孩长大了。
我发誓，我会不起一切的要回我本来的一切。
挡我的人，我不惜把你铲除！
我不再介意你们如何看我， 因为我厌倦了做好人的愚蠢。
起初，我真的愿意放下高傲，掏出助人的心。
当我得不到你们谅解，和你们怨恨的眼神时，
那一刹那，我懂了。
原来，我不是好人。
我不是那种无怨无悔，好人做到底的好人。
当，你们嫌弃我，大家不分红唇皂白的怨我恨我讨厌我时，我受够了！
现实的社会，我来了。
从前的那个女孩长大了。
我发誓，我会不起一切的要回我本来的一切。
挡我的人，我不惜把你铲除！
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
等待
你要相信，有一个人正向你走来，他会带给你最美丽的爱情。
你要做的只是在那个人出现之前，好好的照顾自己。
------ 我知道这世上有人在等着我，但我不知道他究竟会是谁，所以，我每天都会很快乐.
超喜欢这句话~ 希望把它给留住
Sunday, January 2, 2011
2011
What a time files, today has turned to 02January 2011.
No more excuses for everything because now I am 22, has to bear on responsibilities on the decisions taken. 3years ago (2008), the time I decided my degree subject, university. That time, I passed my UEC with flying colors, once, was an ambitious teenager with her future.
Not saying I am having a lousy future, just...... losing my AMBITIOUS spirit. Yes, I am confused about what I had chosen- Accounting. Whether I am the right person for this job, whether I am capable to handle such working life, and whether this is the future I want?
I am the type person who can be what you want me to be, but at least give me some motivation or some sweets that I am looking forward. For example, choosing Accounting as my degree, not actually I am looking forward 3 years ago, just being encouraged by some other adults, and it is one of the professionals that I MAYBE can achieve. Yupe, and, another reason is being impressed by my senior 宇静 in an higher education sharing talk.
But now, I seems like a full-gas balloon losing the gas. But today, suddenly something came into my mind: earn many money whenever I feel energetic and what, TRAVELING!!! yeah, I like traveling with friends but not couple anymore! Wherever we go, try to shoot down the scene and write down those memorable moments in a very classic leather-covered notebook. Omg. I like this kind of experience so much! What a beautiful picture inside my mind now... ... NO MORE COUPLES is the best choice. Recently, being a super fluorescent light make me sick of it!
Just hope this is a target in my 30 year 2020!
No more excuses for everything because now I am 22, has to bear on responsibilities on the decisions taken. 3years ago (2008), the time I decided my degree subject, university. That time, I passed my UEC with flying colors, once, was an ambitious teenager with her future.
Not saying I am having a lousy future, just...... losing my AMBITIOUS spirit. Yes, I am confused about what I had chosen- Accounting. Whether I am the right person for this job, whether I am capable to handle such working life, and whether this is the future I want?
I am the type person who can be what you want me to be, but at least give me some motivation or some sweets that I am looking forward. For example, choosing Accounting as my degree, not actually I am looking forward 3 years ago, just being encouraged by some other adults, and it is one of the professionals that I MAYBE can achieve. Yupe, and, another reason is being impressed by my senior 宇静 in an higher education sharing talk.
But now, I seems like a full-gas balloon losing the gas. But today, suddenly something came into my mind: earn many money whenever I feel energetic and what, TRAVELING!!! yeah, I like traveling with friends but not couple anymore! Wherever we go, try to shoot down the scene and write down those memorable moments in a very classic leather-covered notebook. Omg. I like this kind of experience so much! What a beautiful picture inside my mind now... ... NO MORE COUPLES is the best choice. Recently, being a super fluorescent light make me sick of it!
Just hope this is a target in my 30 year 2020!
Monday, December 27, 2010
Jingle bell in JB and Singapore
yeah!!! my dream about 21st Xmas really being realized!!!
the most wonderful Christmas ever in my life!!
since from my childhood, c.h.r.i.s.t.m.a.s is just like normal holiday... sleeping at home or going church with friends.. kinda fun being together with friends but I was hoping surprise, more adventurous celebration.
this year, 2010, my Christmas is totally different!
This trip was planned since Red Cresent fund-raising at Kampar market.
Me: " Wilson, how about we have a Singapore trip together with our 38 ladies?"
Wilson: " You mer planned lor then we can go together d!"
Then, our trip began...- planning-
After having meeting for few times, then we really make it!
22/12/2010--- Kl to JB
The day before, siewKien and I were super worried because some of the bus tickets already being sold out. Finally, we managed to get three which cost us RM40 (bit expensive than usual)
*RM7 chicken rice*
Around 6pm, we finally reached JB!!! And, wilson's parents spend us the steamboat dinner~ yummy!
23/12/2020--- Singapore Day1
Around 9pm we were going ABROAD (just cross the bridge like Wilson said) and reached Jurong East then take the MRT to our destinations. Thanks to our tourist guide, FuRong brought us to Bugis Street, China Town, Marina Bay,Orchard Road. I am totally impressed with the cleanliness of Singapore--- being penalty of Sg500 dollars drinking in MRT and MRT station. And, fortunately, my classic sg50 dollars still accepted which was given by my dad!
*departing*
*四马路观音庙*
*Marina Bay- Merlion*
*Orchard Road1*
*Orchard Road2*
*orchard road3*
24/12/2010--- Singapore Day2 (Sentosa)
That day, our tourist guide has changed to 'legendary goat', YanYang and our destination was SENTOSA!!! Omg, i have heard a lot of this island from my friends and my parents. This was the place they went to honeymoon 21 years ago! A very special, excited feeling towards this island. The most interesting place we went to is the Underwater World. I was so so so sad that cant go for the Song of the Sea. What a disappointed moment when i heard that the ticket for 740pm show was finished. Sigh... Just hope that, next time I have a chance to visit this beautiful city again!
*vivo city- departing to Sentosa*
*Universal e.n.t.r.a.n.c.e*
*underwater world*
*dolphin*
*vivo city*
25/12/2010--- JB tour
The day without SiewKien. Morning session we were going to UK farm with Wilson relatives. The first time I was feeding the goat with grass and milk. We were taking the RM35 package and it included the meal. A very enjoyable trip and next is JB laksa, it is not so spicy that i expected. Then, the night session, we went to 疯人馆, a place that our boss (wilson) need to use GPS in his 地头. A very special restaurant that designed like a hospital, that I can dream like a doctor and medical check with my crazy patient, SiewKien. After that, we back wilson's home and exchange our xmas present!!! And, luckily they were willing to listen my performance- Jingle Bell song......
*doctor, crazy patient-siewKien, family-jingYeu*
the most wonderful Christmas ever in my life!!
since from my childhood, c.h.r.i.s.t.m.a.s is just like normal holiday... sleeping at home or going church with friends.. kinda fun being together with friends but I was hoping surprise, more adventurous celebration.
this year, 2010, my Christmas is totally different!
This trip was planned since Red Cresent fund-raising at Kampar market.
Me: " Wilson, how about we have a Singapore trip together with our 38 ladies?"
Wilson: " You mer planned lor then we can go together d!"
Then, our trip began...- planning-
After having meeting for few times, then we really make it!
22/12/2010--- Kl to JB
The day before, siewKien and I were super worried because some of the bus tickets already being sold out. Finally, we managed to get three which cost us RM40 (bit expensive than usual)
1230pm our journey started. When we have a rest at YongPeng bus station, we were shocked bythe food price there--- RM7 for 1 plate of chicken rice!!!! (kampar only RM3.20!!!) OMG...
*RM7 chicken rice*
23/12/2020--- Singapore Day1
Around 9pm we were going ABROAD (just cross the bridge like Wilson said) and reached Jurong East then take the MRT to our destinations. Thanks to our tourist guide, FuRong brought us to Bugis Street, China Town, Marina Bay,Orchard Road. I am totally impressed with the cleanliness of Singapore--- being penalty of Sg500 dollars drinking in MRT and MRT station. And, fortunately, my classic sg50 dollars still accepted which was given by my dad!
*departing*
*四马路观音庙*
*Marina Bay- Merlion*
*Orchard Road1*
*Orchard Road2*
*orchard road3*
*vivo city- departing to Sentosa*
*Universal e.n.t.r.a.n.c.e*
*underwater world*
*dolphin*
*vivo city*
*doctor, crazy patient-siewKien, family-jingYeu*
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
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