Jingle bell in JB and Singapore

yeah!!! my dream about 21st Xmas really being realized!!!
the most wonderful Christmas ever in my life!!
since from my childhood, c.h.r.i.s.t.m.a.s is just like normal holiday... sleeping at home or going church with friends.. kinda fun being together with friends but I was hoping surprise, more adventurous celebration.

this year, 2010, my Christmas is totally different!
This trip was planned since Red Cresent fund-raising at Kampar market.
Me: " Wilson, how about we have a Singapore trip together with our 38 ladies?"
Wilson: " You mer planned lor then we can go together d!"
Then, our trip began...- planning-
After having meeting for few times, then we really make it!

22/12/2010--- Kl to JB
The day before, siewKien and I were super worried because some of the bus tickets already being sold out. Finally, we managed to get three which cost us RM40 (bit expensive than usual)

1230pm our journey started. When we have a rest at YongPeng bus station, we were shocked bythe food price there--- RM7 for 1 plate of chicken rice!!!! (kampar only RM3.20!!!) OMG...

*RM7 chicken rice*

Around 6pm, we finally reached JB!!! And, wilson's parents spend us the steamboat dinner~ yummy!

23/12/2020--- Singapore Day1
Around 9pm we were going ABROAD (just cross the bridge like Wilson said) and reached Jurong East then take the MRT to our destinations. Thanks to our tourist guide, FuRong brought us to Bugis Street, China Town, Marina Bay,Orchard Road. I am totally impressed with the cleanliness of Singapore--- being penalty of Sg500 dollars drinking in MRT and MRT station. And, fortunately, my classic sg50 dollars still accepted which was given by my dad!

*departing*

*四马路观音庙*

*Marina Bay- Merlion*
*Orchard Road1**Orchard Road2*

*orchard road3*

24/12/2010--- Singapore Day2 (Sentosa)

That day, our tourist guide has changed to 'legendary goat', YanYang and our destination was SENTOSA!!! Omg, i have heard a lot of this island from my friends and my parents. This was the place they went to honeymoon 21 years ago! A very special, excited feeling towards this island. The most interesting place we went to is the Underwater World. I was so so so sad that cant go for the Song of the Sea. What a disappointed moment when i heard that the ticket for 740pm show was finished. Sigh... Just hope that, next time I have a chance to visit this beautiful city again!

*vivo city- departing to Sentosa*

*Universal e.n.t.r.a.n.c.e*

*underwater world*

*dolphin*

*vivo city*

25/12/2010--- JB tour

The day without SiewKien. Morning session we were going to UK farm with Wilson relatives. The first time I was feeding the goat with grass and milk. We were taking the RM35 package and it included the meal. A very enjoyable trip and next is JB laksa, it is not so spicy that i expected. Then, the night session, we went to 疯人馆, a place that our boss (wilson) need to use GPS in his 地头. A very special restaurant that designed like a hospital, that I can dream like a doctor and medical check with my crazy patient, SiewKien. After that, we back wilson's home and exchange our xmas present!!! And, luckily they were willing to listen my performance- Jingle Bell song......

*doctor, crazy patient-siewKien, family-jingYeu*

苟且偷生

如果给我选，
听着hotel carlifornia
静静的死在课本和笔记
是美的。

却原来，美工刀旧了，
或是
我害怕了，
我留下了。

一旦勇气已加，
我想下一次，
或是下下下次，
你们就永远失去我。

dream

when i was a little kid,
i had a thought that when i turn into 12,
would i have some changes, like my eyes or hair will change color?
and, i actually is a WITCH, can have some magic tricks... and i was being adopted... my real parents are some powerful wizard and witch......

when i was a teenage girl,
i was thinking how and who would be my prince?
a basketball team captain... a talented instruments player......

when i grow older,
i was wondering would i win in a lottery then it change my family and my destiny forever...

well, undoubtedly, these dreams never happen.
I m still an ordinary girl with my little family,
haven't meet my prince or the man,
and still did not win in a a lottery (only get 2 KFC vouchers in primary school lucky draw).
however,
i m still being happy with myself with a healthy body, lovely family and some sweet friends.

many times, people are envy with what pretty things of OTHERS,
hoping themselves can have those things or even prettier but didn't recognize the prettiest already under their eyes. recently, realize that many people surrounding me are having cancer made me feel horrible. will i get my turn or my family's turn in the future? so, now learning to be good, but not perfect.

寂寞

今天- 9月6日回到了那天的情绪。
因为一些事很难过，很失望。
凭什么，你就有得我一个人的？

怎么办？
就连听着胡夏的歌，都没有好起来。

我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉

Scrapbooking Photo Tinks by WiddlyTinks.com

【一个人的世界】

------ 很安静 ，
安静的可以听到自己的呼吸和心跳 。

冷了……给自己加件外套 ；
饿了……给自己买个面包 ；
病了 ……给自己一份坚强 ；
失败了 ……给自己一个目标 ；
跌倒了……在伤痛中爬起并给自己一个宽容的微笑。

我总是一个人 ，累了。
好想逃避这一切又一切。although you told me that crying is one of the way to express our weakness, i cant find any other way to express my feeling right now.
sorry, let you all down but I really need a break after all of the depressing incidents.
thanks for putting faith on me but I m no more the one you knew me.

超人

我不是女超人。

因为在背着一定的负担时，我会喊累。
因为在难过时，我会哭泣。
在我不断地想要变勇敢时，我还是会懦弱。

在朋友需要我时，我会奋不顾身。
在我需要人陪时，大家都很忙。
我只好成为自己的女超人---告诉自己没有很孤单。

今天很难过，女超人放假了，眼泪一直掉不停。

或许

偶然间，再次看到你的背影。
心里难免有所感触，毕竟你曾经在我的心里占了一定的位置。
或许，我还未找到一个比你更适合我的人。
又，或许，音乐的旋律让我不经意对过去有所涟漪，有所迷惘。

对不起，我想太多了。
过去的何必挽留，未发生的何必想太多。

我的父亲

今天是父情节。
很久很久以前，就想写写有关爸爸的感触。
可是，想了很久都没有行动。
我爸爸是个很严肃的人。所以，我们在言行，举止都会很谨慎，说话从不会大小声。就连 Mr.Bean, 周星驰的戏，爸爸都说没一点正经。所以我和弟弟都会等爸爸睡了，才小心翼翼地扭开电视机。

可是，不知为何，我从小就能懂爸爸喜欢什么和不喜欢什么。所以，爸爸会比较疼爱我。妈妈也说，算命先生说，我会带来好运。这，也许是其中的一个原因吧~ 所以，小时候，我可以说是，要风得风，要雨得雨。最让我感动的是，妈妈说，在我很小很小时候，我们那一区很常停电，而我都会一直哭，不能睡觉。结果，爸爸就买了一部发电机。妈妈还说，在我们的那一带停电时，就只有我们的家是亮着灯，吹着风扇。还有，以前小时候，爸爸晚上都会背着我上楼睡觉。有时候，去看表演，例如：舞狮子、中秋节庆典，在我吵着看不到时，爸爸就让我坐在爸爸的肩膀上。以前，爸爸每天都会去喝下午茶，而我就会粘着去。我人生的第一杯咖啡也就在那见老字号的咖啡点喝的。我还记得那时候我不知因为什么事情很伤心，结果爸爸就叫了一杯咖啡我们两个人喝。我那时候很开心因为没有喝过，我还记得那是一杯加了很多炼奶的甜咖啡。

这一些小时候的回忆随着岁月的洗涤，变得模糊，可是没有让我忘记爸爸对我的爱。

在我们长大了，我们就忙着上课，补习。回家时，就只有吃饭和睡觉，也没有好好和爸爸聊天，再也没有一起出去喝茶。看着爸爸的手、脸上的皱纹一天比一天多，顿时觉得时间好快。现在的经济不好了，看着爸爸把自己年轻的存下来的积蓄拿来填补家用，心里就很难过因为我知道，那是爸爸要在退休时到中国玩的旅费。现在，爸爸已到了退休的年龄，却还要为生活而忙碌。

爸爸老了。上一次回家时，爸爸对我交代了一些事情，让我很害怕，害怕爸爸是不是有什么问题。从此以后，每当放假，我都会回家。虽然我的家乡很闷，家里有时候弥漫了一些火药味，可是我还是选择回家。因为回家，你不用愁你的下的那餐如何解决，明天的该到哪里过夜，寂寞时，家人都会和你聊聊天。

爸爸，父情节快乐。祝你身体能健康，长命百岁，好让我们都能好好孝顺您！

madelyn's 21

it was simple but lovely day.

The night before my 21 (26May), i went to dinner with my PMP friends. Then, ruiTian said wana go to wash hands then suddenly came out with a birthday cake and the birthday song from they all, made me so surprised because i just knew them not more than a week! How lovely they are... Thanks to ruiTian be the organizer, JennNing having the sunflower magic trick, Sally and kaHoe trying to make the cake 'kiss' me, WaiMing, SuQi, Andrew, YuQi attending..

After that, my noob brother came with a secret recipe cake n some apples and oranges... haha, the feel like visiting patient in hospital~ anyway, thanks ya for ur heart and not being pilot ^^
Next, Quek came with many bookmarks in his hands. The first thing came into my mind was: OMG! Not bookmark again (after cutting for the whole afternoon)! When i started mumbling him, then PeiZhen and YingXian came with a birthday cake from Quek's back... Surprise!!!.....................................................................................................
The next day- 27th may, 730am, we ( JennNing, Daniel and RuiTian) went to Westlake garden 'jogging'. Actually, the one who jogging were Daniel and JennNing... RuiTian and I were only 'walking' there and snapping some photos with my new camera...

acting cute

The following schedule for the day was planned by Miss Lim- KikiLim...
hahaha, going singK from 12pm till 5pm 2people till losing our sound at the end and dinner with big PRAWN MEE--- yummmmmy^^And i fully utilized my big day by having a yamcha with JennNing, ruiTian and Daniel at MM... Then, after the clock passed 12am, the end of 27th May 2010, I am 21 now!!! And, i tried to love myself and now, must start planning for myself!
......................................................................................................

now wondering how come everyone was celebrating with me on 26th but not on 27th, the origin bday @@ last year also the same... thanks for the only and the best, the earliest present from my papa- camera.
i love it and i promised will take good care of him and love him as i could ~♥~

holiday

这个假期真的很不顺利。
假期一开始，我就在生病，咳嗽和小发烧。
再好一点以后，一直好期待好期待的马六甲之旅取消了。
就连 planB 芙蓉之旅也取消了。
那时候，急着找地方住真的很难受，很委屈。
那时候在想，搞了这么多花样，结果假期还是难过，倒不如回家算了。
回家好安心，至少我不用烦今晚我会在哪儿留宿，下一餐该怎么解决。

还好，我还去了kajang。
真的很感谢凯雁，收留我；还有凯雁的朋友。
终于，我尝试了住宿舍的感觉。
终于，我去到了新纪元。

还有，很感谢慧晶（珍）收留我。
谢谢慧晶妈妈和爸爸带我去吃好吃的；
谢谢慧晶哥哥和姐姐大老远送我回PJ；
谢谢慧晶每天被妈妈叫醒带我去吃早餐，还有陪我到处玩。
谢谢慧晶的朋友-wenJun带我们去见识晚上的KL。

昨天，回来金宝了-一个了无人烟的死城。
在下火车站后，买了两张去太平的火车票。
今天，朋友说，家里有事情，不方便招待我。
说不失望，没有不开心，是骗人的。
现在那两张火车票不知怎么办。
拿去换，还得乘的士去。

听着--顺子的回家

lalala

最近发现让我很不“爽”的是--为什么打电话都没有人接？
come on, what for u hv a phone but not use it?
还有，就是--我不会无端端打电话或打未接电话，就像打电话给消防局而不出声。
当然是有事情发生才打电话呀！就像，当然发生了火灾，才拨电话去消防局一样啊！
有点纳闷加上没有很爽的感觉--复杂的味道。
所以，现在，当我在忙的时候，不想接任何电话时，也不会愧疚感。T__T

最近都很不顺利。
虽然有压力，但也没办法。
朋友说我的EQ有变高，让我有点苦笑。
可能，学会了自己冷静吧~
也可能，没有合适对象让我好好地痛快地发现。

有时候，太甜的蜜糖会让人有点腻。
人，若偶尔喝蜜糖，会让自己会心一“甜”的感觉。
但，若每天喝，会有蛀牙吧~
所以，觉得爱情一旦赤裸裸的暴露就不美了。


今天的博客思绪有点乱。
可能，一时有太多感触吧。
希望明天能提起劲，好好用功！笑一个 =）

女爵疯了

今天，我简直快要逼疯了！
就觉得很烦~
一直未能专心在复习上，再来Co Law报告的分数简直就让我很伤心。
天啊！滑鼠从分数排行榜滑下时，其他人都拿的不错的分数。我竟然这么低！
不是不甘愿！是不明白！
在问过stanley组的分数以后，原来是tutor 的问题~OPHELIA! 讲到现在，我已经累了。
一句话：没有职业操守。

好想好想回到以前的温习态度，找回那失去已久的坚持和能耐~
从早上到下午，整个人简直要崩溃。
好想到西湖呐喊，痛痛快快的呐喊！喊出一切的不快！
本来，还以为自己的EQ提升了，原来还是那么低。刚开始，面对一切的不顺利，还可以说服自己。
到现在，就好像一个充气了的气球，再没有剩余的位置，快要爆炸了。

现在，失去的时间再也回不来。
只好把握即将来临的明天!

Listen to Beyonce' s Listen

看着星光大道时，很欣赏一位叫陆萱的女孩。
看她唱歌，有一种很爽的感觉！
她把梁文音的"我不是你想象的那么勇敢"以及Beyonce的"listen"唱得好好听~

Beyonce- Listen
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own

The. Vampire. Diaries.

I want you to know
That I will always be here for you.
You can come to me about anything, ok?

Stefan to Elena

I am me.

我很爱讲话，
因为害怕那一瞬间，安静的尴尬，

我很爱抱怨，
因为在对自己的要求提高时，不知不觉中对别人也有所要求。

我很爱后悔，
因为不懂珍惜现在拥有的。

我很爱比较，
因为总是希望找到那无形的标准线鞭策自己做到更好。

我很爱炫耀，
因为我希望别人注意到我，害怕被人遗忘。

我很爱占有，
因为我不愿尝试失去，我都希望自己拥有的能够陪在我身边。

我很霸道，
因为我不懂温柔。

我很自私，
因为我还学不会如何站在别人的立场做决定。

我很烦，
因为很多时候，我很会杞人忧天而且还有很多很多的 back-up plan。

我很倔强，
因为我不喜欢看人眼色行事，不想没有自己的原则。

我就是我啊~

FOREVER 21

DUO SATIN TUBE DRESS

I Love You so much!

my friend vs. 21

This sem break totally full of uncertainties, after confirming my PMP training on 21 and 22 May, i don't know should I go for PMP recruitment, should I go for presentation of Blood Donation Campaign, should I go for first aid duty???? And, for my 21, should I stay at Kampar alone or going to KL or some other places better?

Hence, today, i called my fren asking her during my sem break when should i go to stay with her in KL or any plan we can hang out or something special.

During our conversation, I was totally disappointed when I heard she said her BF will go and stay with her for the study week. I know his accommodation problem but I cant understand why you can stand on my side too? Last time, I was so care for him staying with us. Ok, I am your good friend, I should understand you, How about you? Can you understand me? I just wana spend a few days with you for only twice a year!

And, just now, you just complained me that I should inform you earlier the days I come KL and even asked me to stay some where else. I am totally speechless for now. I am really really upset and feel being hurt. The worst thing come into my mind is: your friends are getting far from you is your time management problem and don't just complain others not understand you! Sorry i have to say this but the truth is this!

At least, I have other plans for now. The worst plan is just staying Kampar. 21! My 21! Seeing other having their 21 so memorable, and so envy about my friends and senior one since from my high school. I keep telling myself what 21 big plan or what other 21 surprises just a ritual, the most important thing is know how to enjoy my life. However, I still hoping I have a special and unforgettable one... at least, I am not alone~

Perfect Penang Shot

上个星期六和星期天，参加了两天一夜的penang之旅。到现在才写部落格是因为这几天太累了。每晚，大概12am就睡了。一张图片胜过千言万语。这些都是自己觉得还不错的照片^^

第一站：OCC 的店。我们还每一个人跟OCC 的妈妈道谢。真搞笑. XD

第二站：Butterfly Farm. 很可爱的外国女孩。

一只拥有小 love图案的蝴蝶在我手上。

我们的秘书小姐abigail。自然。气质。

偶然间，拍到这对好可爱的 twins。

离开butterfly farm是拍到的-很向往的家庭野餐。

第三站: Tropical Spice Garden. 一种有 Vicks 味道的植物。清新。

很有 the road not taken 的 feel.

最有意思的 portrait shooting. model~eiko.

第二天，吃完早点，到 Protestant Cemetery (1789-1892) 拍照。
model： alywn foo

model: eunice tan

Francis Light 之墓

站在马路对岸拍的一张超有feel 的照片。

极乐寺 shot 1

shot 2: hotel roommates

shot3

Shot4: 在occ示范后自己拍的近距离油灯。

大概6pm 左右，我们就从槟城的 queen's Bay 向金宝出发。大概840pm就回到家了。这次的penang 之旅之所以有意义是因为能够拍到这些难得的照片。当然，我真的非常感谢相机的主人。

~thank you for being my penang dream builder~